Video Games

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Video game hyper focusing makes me so pacified while I'm doing it, and so disenchanted with myself when I'm done. I can't backspace and add more time to the day. The only pacifier for this disenchantment for having done nothing of substance all day? It is obviously *not* doing something of substance, because I have already been so unproductive for such a huge percentage of the day that there isn't enough time left that I could do enough to ctrl-z the wasted time. No, the logical thing to do is cure my disenchantment with more video games and F5 this shit tomorrow. Surely the me of tomorrow will be productive.
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