Rage

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I'm so angry recently. All the resentment that I've bottled up over the years is surfacing. All the rage that I've protected everyone from in case it hurts their feelings or makes them uncomfortable or pushes their fragile psyche over the edge is coming out. It's not pretty. I feel infuriated and invincible.

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