Dreams Unrealized

While watching the Olympics I find myself being so jealous...of everyone. Even the ones doing sports that I'm not interested in. I really want to do all of them, and do it just as well as them.

I am a covetous person, but not in the conventional way. I am not usually jealous of someone's car or clothes or looks, but jealous of their various talents. Even those who have worked on their talents for years. I want to be the most creative, fastest, smartest, and best at every instrument, sport, and type of dance.

I realize that this is one of the seven deadly sins and also in the top ten. I know that this is a major character flaw, but am not sure where it comes from or what to do about it. I also feel sad that I won't get to explore every corner of the Earth, so I think part of the coveting it is that I want to experience everything. I nearly have a panic attack when I think about how that is not possible to do in this life. You'd think that this would drive me to make my life as full as possible. To spend my time developing talents, and constantly be learning, doing and traveling. Sadly, I am also lazy. I spend more time learning the fake guitar hero guitar than I do practicing my own real guitar. I spend more time surfing the internet and lazing around than exploring my neighborhood or keeping in shape.

I need to do something about this and stop filling my time with nonsense. I need to spend some time making my own dreams come true.

Several years ago, I went to a panel at my church about realizing your dreams. The woman who taught it was a mother of two living in a small apartment, struggling to make ends meet. Her two dreams were to be an Olympic swimmer, and move to Italy where she wanted to have olive trees and a slower pace of life. She explained that it wasn't going to happen, at least not now, and in all probability, never. She talked about not giving up, and that even if you couldn't realize the whole dream, she could realize part of it. She began swimming again, bought a beautiful Italian cookbook that she began working through and a little indoor olive tree to care for. I loved that concept. I think everyone should put it into action.

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