"You injured yourself twice today eating soup."
Sunday, December 21, 2014
Friday, September 26, 2014
Sunday, September 7, 2014
On The Horrendous Movie "The Prince"
"He's so bad ass and aloof! He doesn't even like his guns!"
-Heidi
Sunday, July 20, 2014
Dexter Says
After walking in the bathroom...
"Someone was leaking all day!"
Labels: Dexter, Dexter Says, Snippets, Someone Says
Saturday, July 19, 2014
Thursday, July 17, 2014
Tuesday, April 29, 2014
IM Hilarious: Commitment
Commitmentphobe: I'm freaking out some
Heidi: Why?
Commitmentphobe: Still seeing that guy. Getting feelings. It's hard.
It's hard to adjust to someone
And I'm so insecure
Heidi: Aw. It's the first and best hill of the roller coaster. Enjoy it
Commitmentphobe: I'm trying to do that and not just be sitting here afraid for the other shoe to drop
He hasn't done anything wrong, it feels mean to distrust him, you know? But people are dicks
Heidi: Yes. People are dicks and the other shoe will eventually drop. But hopefully the other shoe won't be a croc covered with dog shit. Maybe it'll just be like a penny loafer or something.
Labels: boy, Conversations, IM Hilarious, love and marriage
Wednesday, April 16, 2014
Measurable Progress
On February 21, 2011, I was in a terrible spot. I had been separated a little over half a year. I was impoverished with no end in sight. I was working two jobs and exhausted. It didn't matter how much I worked, I would not be able to make my rent. It was just a matter of how slowly I wanted to drown. My children had the day off of school and I wanted to do something with them. I told them we were taking a "poor man's trip to Baltimore." We drove to the Inner Harbor. I couldn't afford to buy tickets to anything so we visited the gift shops to Hard Rock Cafe, Port Discovery Children's Museum, and the Baltimore Aquarium. I told them someday we would have more money and be able to go in. Then I bought them hot chocolates and we came home.
Today we went to Baltimore again. I have enough money for parking, gas, lunch, Ripley's Believe It Or Not, an overpriced sushi dinner at a restaurant on the water, and cookies for dessert. It was a great day. It was a poignant day. I'm proud of how far I have come.
Labels: pieces of me
Friday, April 11, 2014
Great Quotes
“In any moment of decision, the best thing you can do is the right thing, the next best thing is the wrong thing, and the worst thing you can do is nothing.”
-Theodore Roosevelt
Labels: Great Quotes, Snippets
Monday, March 24, 2014
420
Cole: (pointing at whiteboard) Ipad sign up 4:20!
Heidi: What?
Cole: Ipad sign up 4:20!
Heidi: Ugh. Why are you in high school?
Cole: I don't know.
Heidi: Stop saying that.
Labels: Cole, Conversations, Parenting, Snippets
Wednesday, March 19, 2014
Slipping Through My Fingers
I'm depressed again. Maybe it's the weather. I'm finding myself dragging through days. I'm having to pep talk myself out of a nap and hurl internal abuse at myself for the stupid procrastination that keeps happening.
My oldest son just turned 16. If he leaves for college when he is 18, I have less than 2 years to finish training him to be a functional adult and a thoughtful roommate. I want my children to feel empowered and capable. I spent the weekend refining their adult skills: cooking, baking, buying textbooks online, organizing a closet, using bleach.
I wanted to provide a nice life for them. I'm still in college and by the time I am able to provide a better life for them, they will be gone. That makes me so sad.
I feel like I'm 19 again. I'm living just the way I did then, except this time there are 3 children in my tiny apartment, stretching my tiny budget. I wanted them to have better. I wanted to do better for them.
And what of the rest of my life? What of that? So much time has been spent undoing and relearning. I'm tired of the constant struggle. I'll keep doing it. I get up to fight another day each morning, but I'm so tired.
Labels: Cole, depression, Parenting, pieces of me
Monday, March 17, 2014
Things I Never Thought I Would Say
In response to "Mommy, what is my chore today?"
"I write these things down so I don't have to answer your questions."
Wednesday, January 29, 2014
Down to the River
Labels: pieces of me
Tuesday, January 14, 2014
Cordboard
Labels: Conversations, Dexter, Snippets